If you are really gay, then I regret to inform you that you cannot ignore it away. It doesn't go away because you don't act on it. The earlier you confront and accept that, the better it will be for you. You don't want to be consumed by internal homophobia.

I suggest you fully understand what is happening with you. Are you attracted to men in general? Are you merely curious as to how if it feels to be that close with another male? How long has this been going on? When did you notice these feelings?

When you have successfully answered these questions, then you might get some closure.

I just want you to understand that being attracted to other men isn't unusual. It isn't horrifying. It isn't a bad thing in itself. It doesn't mean that you have to have anal sex (some gay men don't). It doesn't mean that you're a bad person, or any less of a guy.

Good luck as you find yourself.