Forming any kind of relationship is hard for me. I don’t have any friends and haven’t had a partner in 10 years because of the hurt and betrayal I’ve experienced.

My parents were drug-addicted alcoholics who had many different lovers and a variety of children with other partners. I was married at 18 to a bloke who made me work and then stole all of my money.

My second husband virtually forced me into prostitution and then ran off with one of my stepsisters. When I complained to my mother, she told me that I was worthless and ugly, so what did I expect? Strip As a consequence I’ve now become hard-hearted and cold.

When I want sex, I pay for it. I have the number of an up-market male escort agency on my phone and simply book a stud whenever I’m Hot. I have half a dozen guys who know what I require.
I think nothing of ordering them to strip off and pleasure me. The other night I was forced to stay in London on business so I ordered a guy along with my room service.

Taken from Trendiee, full story at https://www.trendiee.com/confessions/i-pay-for-sex-because-i-find-it-hard-to-trust/

Oya clap for urself... Soon U'll realise u've wasted some years worrying over nothing and by den U'll wish u could pay for it then..