Where do I actually Start From?

This Is Going To Be Short Or Long I cant Tell Buh Its Typed with a Sould Full of Regrets!
I opened A New Account for This Too...

Expectations Where Laid On Me, Hopes On Me Too... I messed Them All Up! The Cause? Prostitutes and Bet9ja!

Am 18!
You Heard Me Right!

I got Admission like everyother student But mine was under a diffrent circumstance, i was 16 when i got Admission, I actually started off we the right people But along The way In my 200leve I moved Into the school Hostel...
Thats where My Plight Began...

A Friend Introduced Me To an Ashawo Quaters, As A One Night Stuff, i actually Took Over His Throne, Virtually No Night Passsed That I didnt go there, being The shy Guy i was i couldnt ask A Girl Out Talk More of Sex! Talk About Bet9ja, Thats What Orchastrated my downfall Properly, after spending My 200 Level Fees On Clothes, Prostitute and A Girl, i Decided to Use my Head and Try and Put Things Togerther, when Itwas Time for 300 level To start, a Rule of "You Must Pay All Your outstanding Fees Before Been Given a Hostel space" was Enacted!

Giving Myself A Lifeline oR so I thought I decided to Use My school fee for 300 Level To play Bet9ja.... Worst Decision ever Taken By a Teenager Like Me!

I staked It, and Guess what!
I lost!
I cant really explain My story The way I want But Something is CERTAIN, IM not Giving Up Just Yet...

I read stuffs. I see Motivational Quotes, that Keeps me Going!

But every Morning I wake The Thought Of Me problem creepsInto Me....

Am Too Young for This...
But I caused It...
Its My cross... I will carry It

Have you discussed this with your parents?
Open up to them,they will guide you right..

He be like say one pastor Don talk say make u confess...
Anyways all habits are good or bad, since you know you don't like it or it's affecting you, go and do something about it by disciplining yourself.
Get new hobbies and interests and maybe you will overcome this

IAMBlesssed:
Have you discussed this with your parents?

Open up to them,they will guide you right..

its A Suicide Mission...

But Either Ways, Blood Is Blood...
If Its My Parents That Will Kill me, so Be It...

Thanks Plenty

OP I will only tell you to focus on your goals and objectives.
Addictions are hard to let go.
I also had my fair share of hoes while in the university but I was never a gambler because where I come from,I learnt from my predecessors that there is no such thing as "lucky money".
It only comes with proper planning,timing and execution of either logistics or commodity.in our case was the latter.
Anyways,i bleeped hoes,smoked cigarettes,was a businessman,but I never skipped class!
But today,men don dey alright.
Focus on the goal,the prize and forget all the whole talk of these habits bring bad luck and all.they are all lies.
You are the only one responsible for your own luck.
Keep doing you and try to make good money the right way,you go dey alright las las.

Thanks! i dont miss lectures at all... i have taken a stance in my life to break free, its my past thats haunting me! unpaid school fees, i ve had suicaidal thoughts buh im not giving up just yet! let me hope for a lifeline...

The way Nigerians abuse words.
Who dash you prodigy?

Why do you think you are prodigious

Narrate your ordeal to your parent and sincerely ask for forgiveness.

See your life? @18? go and confess to your pastor or priest let them do deliverance for you because it will be difficult to break those bad habits on your own

Lol. This young man thinks he is a prodigy because he got admitted when he was 16. Nigga be feeling like a Mozart

Still trying to understand what makes you a prodigy?

It may appear like an abuse of the term but for you to use the word prodigy says a lot about how you feel about yourself. You believe in yourself. At 18, you have identified your mistakes and want to correct them. Some have gone from this stage due to youthful exuberance to become monsters. Don't do anything stupid anymore. Own up your mistakes and speak to your parents since it looks like they are the ones financing your education. You have the world ahead of you if you graduate by 20 and finish service by 2021.
You are moving with the wrong company and instead of channeling this energy to much productive things, you have let it damage this budding 'prodigy'. My friend, reclaim your title. Some of the steps you will take e.g apologizing to your parents and owning up may not be easy but this is the beginning of your steps to greatness.