I feel your pain bro, Many of us have been in this situation. Some are still passing through it now.
Don't give up, suicide is not an option, it'd never be. You seem to be expecting more results than your efforts. Take life one step at a time, you don't have to carry your whole family financial burden alone, do the ones you can and leave the rest. You still have your life to live, you still have a family to build, you have a future to save for. You can't carry your whole family's financial burden and expect to still be financially bouyant, shed some weight bro. And finally, be patient with yourself. You'll get there. Don't forget,PRAYER IS THE KEY. Cheers

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NO MATTER WHAT IT IS THAT YOU'RE PASSING THROUGH PEOPLE WILL ASK YOU TO GO CLOSER TO GOD... AS IF IT'S DEVIL YOU'VE BEEN CLOSER TO ALL ALONG.

IF YOU'RE NOT GETTING WHAT YOU WANT THEY TELL YOU ABOUT MORE PATIENCE AND MORE PRAYERS, AND GOD PLANS. THEY'LL EVEN SAY THAT YOU'RE NOT ASKING FOR THE RIGHT THINGS.. LIKE THERE'S AN EXISTING MANUAL FOR THINGS TO ASK FOR AND THINGS NOT TO ASK FOR.

PRAYING IS A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME. NOT ONE SINGLE THING CAN BE ACCOMPLISHED ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD BY PRAYING, BUT LOOK AT ALL THE THINGS THAT WE CAN DO BY WORKING TOGETHER!

Prayer is working together with God, duh. Prayer changes things. Your life would change if you spent more time praying, don't you think?

gentleman82:
so na suicide remain for you now abi. Ok choose between poison, rope for neck, or jumping inside water. Anyone you i wish you happy dying in advance.

Get sense

I feel your pain, just on Wednesday I had same thought and tears drop my eyes but my consolation was if there is life there is hope, nothing last forever just hold on help is on the way

You need survive first before trying to ensure the survival of someone else.

Savemefromdying:
I wake up everyday asking myself why is life so unfair to me, at a young age i have this dream of being great. I graduated from secondary School at the age of 14, I was so happy. My mum too was very Happy her dream was for me to study abroad, but all those dream died when my mom fell sick.

Being the first son i started struggling at early age so i can provide for my younger ones and sick mom too.luckily for me i got admission into a Nigeria polytechnic in 2018 I'm doing my I.T now but i know I'm not going back to complete my hnd, because my younger brother got admission into a Federal University I've to work hard so i can provide for him.

I'm 23 now but i can boost of anything, I can't even boost of 2k is funny right? But that's the truth i do all sorts of job but nothing seems to be working in my favor. Everyday i go to bed telling God to save me from this pain by taking my life because is becoming so unbearable for me.

Please i really need advice because I'm really getting depressed,my soul is tired,my spirit is weak. I might end it someday. I'm still holding up because of my mom and my two siblings because nobody will be there fo them.
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I really need advice because I'm now looking like a shadow of myself.

Life no balance brother

Sometimes I look up and say why to God
I am a graduate with no job, sometimes just a hundred naira to load card or cut hair dey hard me, I have tried everything, even done a security job before, but still things hard, but I know it's coming Sha, keep on riding, keep on believing cos we know it will come soon.,...believe brother, if there is life then we need to keep the hope