Today makes it 365 days of being clean!!
I've been sober for a year!!
It wasn't an easy road...
No more cravings...No more compulsions.

I was on a destructive path,
A cocktail of pills and syrup.
Rohypynol and Benilyn,
700mg a day in my blood stream.

A pill and a sip a day to forget my pains..
more pills and more sips to keep forgetting.
The drugs kept the pain away
but couldn't keep the nightmares at bay.

So every night I battled my demons alone.
Dose after Dose.
A loosing battle, cause I was going nuts
seizure after seizure.

It was an expensive habit,
a habit I chipped at my soul to maintain.
Prowling in dark corners at night;
15k a day for the high was no joke.

Broke, distraught and despairing;
Lost but seeking solace,
I ran home to my aged Mom.
And There I had a 3rd seizure!!

September 11th, 2019.
I heard my Momma cry!!
I heard her fear as she prayed,
"God, do not take my only child away"

I could picture her panic,
her fear, her anguish
as she watched and prayed
over my convulsing body.

That was the day I decided to quit!!

That determination was key.
I set a time table for myself.
Gradual reduction; then cold turkey.
The withdrawal was terrible!!

It is the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life.

When you are dependent on drugs,
you forget how to live without the drugs.
You ask yourself how you survived without it?
How can you go on living without it?
Is it worth it? Should I carry on?
At the same time you ask yourself,
Why am I so weak?
What will my late fiancee think?
What will my son think of me, his father?
The doubts creep in...
The mental turmoil...
The unresolved emotional distress...
The relapse?!

But I kept strong
and today I'm in a better space.

I can never relapse.
I'm proud to say that "that time don pass".
I am a conqueror.
No be small thing.

One year anniversary!!

According to the NBS, 14.3 million people are drug users.
I think it's way way more than that.

Can you go a day with drug consumption?

Do the thoughts of drugs consume your
thoughts, thinking of where your next hit is coming from?

Do drugs distract you from your day to day activities?

Can you function properly without the drugs?

If the answer is NO, then you've got a problem.

If you got questions... Well, DM I guess.

Damn son..kudos. No be child's play.

You're doing fine...
This is really a worthy act.

I congratulate you. I hope that your life will be all right now.