Bro, i know im not in your shoes, so I cant really give you the best solution but if I'm to advice you we all gonna die at the end of the day ,so why want to kill yourself early, that thought is not good and truly their is hell fire,so don't take ur life, do things that make you happy,and early in the morning or late at night do go for a 30mins or 1hr work ,you will feel happy and alive and ideas will flow into your brain on what to do to make your life better,will say a word of prayer for you too

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I actually feel like commiting suicide but I am worried about my family most especially my mum, if it's my dad and siblings I won't mind. Another reason is GOD. I'm aware taking one's life is a sin and one might end up in hell. I don't want to burn in hell if it really exist.

To me I think Jesus arranged for his own death through Judas. The whole sacrifice of him dying for us was prearranged. So I seriously want someone to kill me. I jus wanna die, through a gunshot most preferably, something real quick.