MamaC0co:
I don't like attention, I always get wet when I see someone in extreme pain and I can orgasm if I'm the one inflicting the pain. I always look for gory pictures whenever I hear something bad. If I see a post on accidents, it only gets interesting when the graphic pictures are included. I'm extremely interested in knowing more about someone that bad things has happened to. Whenever I'm alone, Sinister things always cross my mind.
I find posts relating to suicide interesting.. maybe through electrocution or boiling in hot liquid or anything very harmful like that. Infact, I've watched a lot of horror movies, I just stopped watching them recently when they started becoming too fake and unrealistic. I've watched videos on how people are executed on YouTube, jungle Justice, rape, etc.

A good way for me to think is when I can induce the sad mood for myself. Or find something that will make me extremely sad.

I'm not comfortable with being too excited as I don't feel like myself or act like I'm in my right frame of mind, so I always find something that makes me sad. Usually listening to a music or just the instrumental and putting it on repeat. If that doesn't do, I survey posts on nairaland hunting for bad events etc till I'm satisfied.

Is this normal? Is anyone feeling the same way?

Cut yourself and drink your blood you will be ok

Lalasticlala oooooo