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Good evening all, this will have been easier if it's oral but what I can do. Will have to type

Finished institution in 2018, while in school there is this lady I met in class & after a little friendship we started dating. The very day she told me yes, she emphatically said 'No sex until marriage' and I joyfully said yes because honestly that's the type of Christian lady I wanted. Despite the fact that we slept today by under one roof either at my place or her place. This was practiced throughout our days at school but we never had sex. Of course we did other form or foul play kissing, smooching but she helped me so well by not giving in for sex & sincerely speaking, I appreciate that because it help my faith alot while in school.
During our courtship/dating in school, she made me promise her that if God revealed to me that she isn't my wife, I shouldn't hesitate to tell her but she's is very convinced that she is my future wife because God has shown her repeatedly.

Down to 2019 during our service year, we got posted to different states. My prayer about our union got serious because my plan was that immediately after NYSC, I want to take her to the altar. After series on intense prayer & consultations, I got a revelation that she isn't God will for me (even the permisve will is not too pure because of her family background). I make consultations, visit different pastors, even send her back to the people that I know that are spiritually sound but what I keep getting is no.
Mhen, it's too hard for me to comprehend the response, even the one I saw myself. Like this lady is too unique for me not to get married to her. Another misery about the thing is that according to her, she prayed by herself, even consult her spiritual fathers, friends even her mum as well, she got a leading that I am her man

I prayed but God had already spoken, it's painful but I had to tell her the revelation I got. It's painful on her end too but we both have to let go. (All this happened before we finished our NYSC program). She stays back in the States she serve while I move to another state for job purposes.

After we path ways, a day can't go buy without me thinking of her. Like, if there is another adjective to qualify how much I loved & adore this lady, guys, you will tell me to go ahead & marry her....
We usually phone each other ones in a while. We both moved on I believe, I met another lady which I will talk about in later thread. But I still love this lady like am insane because she is my perfect picture lady. So it's so hard to just let go of such feeling. Since mid 2019 we parted, and despite still moving on, my heart still yawn for her everyday. Like she's the only one for me in the whole universe.

During her birthday last year, despite the fact that I got a personal revelation that this lady is not mine & knowing fully that she's with another guy, I pull a call through to her to which a happy birthday, apologies & beg her to please give a second chance that I can't live without her. That her thought alone, drives me crazy, blablabla... She plainly told me that she's sorry she already have a boyfriend & she can't cheat on her boyfriend. To me, it's painful (despite the fact I had a leading that this lady is not meant for me but you know that thing called love is too powerful to be control or outsmart by your wisdom, it take the help of God. Love has no respect for age or experience. When you are in love. It's a like a journey of no reverse. Most time you will know that your partner is doing otherwise in a relationship but when you truly in love, it's too difficult to call yourself to other. Mind you, love is a beautiful when you a with the right person.

Back to my story, she said she with someone else, I felt pained but a part of me was happy like 'hahe you forgotten she is not for you'. We moved on or I should say I moved on. We still talk & few months after, she told me indirectly that the new guy doesn't understand her, that they have broke up. I wanted to ask her out again but a spirit was cautioning me not to. So I obey the spirit.

Early 2022, her friend who is also my friend just posted her picture with rip caption �. I couldn't believe my eyes, had to call the lady what happened & she confirm that what I saw was true. Though we haven't spoke in weeks not even chat because I have been trying to wake up to reality that this lady isn't mine so because of that I am limiting the call & chat....

What really cause her death, according to my sources, they said she is sick & no doctor can diogonize the nature of her sickness. They took her to church but.......In a nutshell, she died after few days of battling with this sickness...

While I was still murning her. (She's too perfect to die just like that) you won't believe that her brother & sister that she's very close to moved on so fast than me. Like his brother upload stuff on his Twitter like nothing happened same thing with her sister ( this is the sister they stays together till her demise) she hang out, don't get me wrong, they need to moved on but uploading it on social media..... Haba!!!! That's not potraying the family well.

But the essence of this epistle to y'all is that.....
1. When God says it's not the road, please back out without asking questions, some disappointment are blessing in disguise
2. Don't fall in love if you haven't got a leading by God because it's not always easy ending a relationship. I am not talking or love based or selfish interest, but love based on true commitment to each other.

As for the singles out there, may the spirit of God lead us to our ideal partners. As for those that marry out of love or desperation, may God show mercy on you & blossom your home with everything you needed to enjoy your spouse.

I just feel the urge to share my experience with y'all. Hope you learn one or two things from it.

Remain bless & wishing you all a successful week ahead.

What's the point desiring when it will only favor the woman?