My name is Adeola, I am a 24-year-old lady, and here is my story:

I grew up knowing God. I was fortunate enough to be brought up in a Christian home, a house that taught us the way of the Lord. I can proclaim I love Jesus. Entering university at that time was my joy. Back in secondary school, I was mostly called Jesus's mother, and for some reason, I loved it and wanted to replicate the same thing in university.

I frowned at a lot of things in secondary school. I stood for purity. I detested a boy and a girl in a relationship, especially when they were doing immoral things. Pornography is immoral, masturbation is, kissing is immoral to me, giving access to touch one another's body is immoral to me, and worst of all, having sex before marriage I so much detest and hate. All I preached and stood for is that no immoral person will enter the kingdom of God; that was my mandate.

Entering the university was a thing that supplied joy into my soul. I was happy entering school. I immediately joined a fellowship for the purpose of growth. I became a worker and became very consistent in going to church. When I have the opportunity to talk to both male and female, I make sure I tell them the danger of not making oneself pure in the face of God.

My words were always carrying power and grace that many would cry. Entering 200 level, I was given more opportunity to preach on the pulpit, which I did not hold back my sword of purity, even though some seniors in church were always against me, some saying I am doing what is called holy holy. It was amazing to me when I started realizing that even our so-called leaders in church are into immorality.

Meanwhile, any time I am given the opportunity to be on the pulpit, I always trash things out, not caring if anyone is hurt. Yes, it's the word of God, and it should not be hidden or pampered to suit anyone.

I never had condemnation in my heart not until this day, I mean this day, a day of tears and agony. Yes, I was made the sister coordinator immediately I was in 300 level. Now I was given a bigger way to express myself, even though some leaders were against it, still, I was elected. I then would talk about wearing short skirts and clothes that expose one's cleavage. Many would get annoyed, and some would be blessed.

Not until one afternoon I can't explain how it happened even till now. Was I drunk? Did he put something in the drink he gave me, or did I lose control of myself and had sex with him? Till now, I don't know, but this experience tore my life apart. I could not find a place to forgive myself, and I also believed God could not forgive me. Gradually, I could not go to church again.

Immediately from 300 level second semester to 400 level second semester, I was depressed. My own very life was dying before my eyes, and I could not do anything, academic life was dying. For more than a year, my life was shattered. Who could help me? The Jesus I knew was silent over my life. My life became miserable.

Not until April 22, 2019, a young man came to me. He said, "Can I preach Christ to you, ma?" Then I answered that I am not interested, but he persisted, so I gave him an audience.

He then said, "Have you heard of The Love Of Christ?" He said, "It's a pity that now the church stops at the consequence of sin and the judgment that sin brings into our lives, but there are fewer people that know about the love of Christ, that when we were yet sinners, he died for us.

That there are some that till date could not forgive themselves and come back to Jesus because they think they have been condemned, all because they don't know about the love of Christ, that men now are harsh in their preaching for souls to be saved and have forgotten that in Christ, as much as he is a father that disciplines, that he also is a loving father.

We've forgotten that the great commission we were given was to preach not just sin but the Good News, which is the love of Christ, that many no longer know how much JQesus loves them, but how much he will deal with them if they sin." As he continued talking, I was already crying.

In tears, I said, "He gave me the mandate of purity, now I have failed him. What can I do?" Then he said, "Your purity does not lie in your virginity alone, that there is still more that can become of those that lost their virginity to the circumstances of life." He then told me that the Spirit and the Bride are telling me to come, that my experience is to make me understand the deep realm of my mandate, and to be able to teach Many.

He said there is still more that can happen, for as long as there is hope for a tree that is cut down for at the scent of water it shall spring back to life again, that there is still restoration.

I renewed my life to Christ; guess what, I am back to church and not just that, I now know that in my saying and as I am preaching purity I must not remove the love of Christ. Many were in my shoes, and by God's grace, Christ helped them through me.

Are you currently in the shoe I was before? I am here to tell you that Jesus loves you more than you think you know, and he is telling you to come; he is saying come.

If you read this at all, tell me one or two things you learned and were you blessed at all.

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Adetoye Ayomikun

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