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Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 12:37pm On Aug 17, 2017 |
lastmessenger:Thanks and thanks a million times. I'll keep this to heart but it's not just going to be easy. I'm naturally a very emotional person. I love just too much and that's my weak point. |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 10:09pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
lastmessenger:I can with the no sex part...but living with a "complete stranger" without even the most basic of communication will send me to an early grave. Talking about purpose, of course I do have one. I have a job and other things to look up to in life.. . But none will take the place of the man I vowed to love for the rest of my life. Life isn't about sex and intimacy, I concur. So life is about frustrating your fellow human being who has done nothing but good to you? So life is about getting a girl out of her parents house with the promise of being a lifetime companion but turn around to humiliate her? Define life for me bro. Somethings are not for jokes my brother. Think about that. 1 Like |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 10:01pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
FortuneTeller:My dear, marriage is really serious in real life. If he's giving me companion and affection without good sex or no sex at all.. . I won't be here complaining. How do you deal with a lover turned to a complete stranger right before your eyes? I can't even cheat... the thought makes me puke already. I'm just tired. |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 9:57pm On Aug 16, 2017 |
Xcelinteriors:Thanks for stopping by. It's not easy my sister, when you're looking forward to a blissful marriage only to realize your partner isn't thinking alongside. You do everything humanly possible to make it work but he is bent on wrecking everything without remorse. |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 10:25am On Aug 16, 2017 |
njele:You've really not experienced life. A lot of things which you think are impossible to happen.. . Happen daily. Believe me 2 Likes |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 10:22am On Aug 16, 2017 |
AngelicBeing:My story is not fake and the person you quoted wasn't referring to me. Read the previous comments other people made, you'll find out. It hurts to imagine people think my story is fake. It just hurts so much. 1 Like |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 10:10am On Aug 16, 2017 |
YabaLeftist:Were you referring to my story as fake or the story or the story of the other lady? Thanks anyway |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 10:05am On Aug 16, 2017 |
Vutseck:No sir, I didn't lure him into marriage. He came with an outright intention of marrying me, after investigations and prayers from my family I agreed to marry him. If you had said we didn't really go into courtship before marriage, I'll agree with you but luring him... there wasn't room for that. It NEVER happened. 2 Likes |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 9:53am On Aug 16, 2017 |
ebonflexy:do you have any idea that the post the person you quoted was referring to was not mine? Try and go through previous comments before quoting people. As for talking about myself in "several paragraphs"... I was only trying to make clear that I have the qualities most men desire in a woman. Do I damage my husband with my tongue? The answer is in one of my previous comments... my parents prepared me for marriage. I'm among the few who knows what a Godly marriage entails. Thanks for your contribution. 1 Like |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 8:36pm On Aug 14, 2017 |
I appreciate all your advice, suggestions and prayers. God knows I'm just weak. I'm weak even in the spirit now. This is not me. God please help me. Life has dealt me a deadly blow. What a life!!! |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 7:58pm On Aug 13, 2017 |
Do I make our home uncomfortable for him? No!!! How do I know? He kept telling me of how lucky he was to have a wife like me. He says I give him peace that most married men don't have. He sometimes tell me how his friends are amazed when they complain about their wives but he only has positive things to say about me. Can't you people just see? I don't know if there's anything I've done. I don't know where I've gone wrong!!! I'm dying!!! He is all I have. I made him believe he is all to me. Is he taking advantage of my fragile nature? Is he taking advantage of my kind nature? I don't know but God knows 1 Like |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 7:51pm On Aug 13, 2017 |
I married a man who hates men that keep late nights. I married a man who hates men that don't care for their families. Years back he started hanging out with a bunch of night crawlers, I begged, cried and prayed. It stopped at a point but started again. I don't know if this whole thing has to do with the friends he keeps. |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 7:46pm On Aug 13, 2017 |
A lot of people still don't understand what I meant when I said I've tried everything to make him open up. About making meals... I have a job which gets me back home on time to get food ready. How did he start sleeping in the sitting room? I can't explain it, from watching movies late into the night to "I had a stressful day, just allow me to chill a little here". I can't count how many times I came to wake him to join me inside. He comes in sometimes, other times he gets angry and ask me to leave him. He placed a password on his phone years back, I did all I could to make him see reasons why it's not necessary yet he refused and will rather pick a fight. Initially he calls to inform me he'll be home late if something comes up. Now he doesn't even tell me his whereabouts. I should get back in shape? I'm in shape already.. . I wasn't joking when I said most single ladies have nothing on me. I begged him to join all these social platforms but a lot has changed since he eventually did. I've lost count of waking him up even at night to talk but he won't let that happen, he'll rather humiliate me. Stop asking me to look back and retrace this whole thing. I've done that a gazillion times, yet I can't pinpoint anything. I'm not a saint but the truth is that my parents prepared me for marriage. I came into it with a mindset of making it perfect. I came into it with the knowledge of how to make a man happy for the rest of his life.. . But it's heartbreaking to say I married a man who doesn't need any of that. How else am I supposed to know what the problem is? This is killing me 10 Likes |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 7:48am On Aug 13, 2017 |
KingEbukasBlog:How do you know if there's anything you did, when he insist you've done nothing? Pity from public? Public that don't even know me in real life? No I don't seek that. I just felt like lifting the pains off my chest a little. For the records, what I wrote here is a tip of the iceberg. I'm not saying I'm an angel.. . But if God decides to judge I and him, he'll die before the end of today because he has done abominable things to me. 8 Likes |
Family / Re: How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 7:21am On Aug 13, 2017 |
I just came back to see if anyone took out time to drop a word or two for me. I really appreciate your inputs. Prayers? I'm ashamed to say I'm tired of praying. We don't even have our morning devotions again. I'm even afraid that this atmosphere is unhealthy for my kids. I don't even feel like going to church today, though my beautiful new dress was ironed yesterday. I'm just tired of smiling outside when I'm actually dying inside. I wish this is a dream or novel. That's my life ooo, last night I felt like ending it all, this morning I feel like holding on whether he shows me affection or not. Loneliness is my best friend. You know what? I'll appreciate it if you all share this story on every social platform you know, especially Facebook. He's active there, he will read it somehow. He will know I wrote this, he just knows how I can pen down my feelings. God bless you all. 11 Likes 3 Shares |
Family / How My Husband Turned Me To A Porn Addict by Brokenangel2: 1:14am On Aug 13, 2017 |
It's almost 12 midnight and I heard the door to the sitting room open. He walked in and of course slumps into one of the sofa where he'll sleep till tomorrow. It's either the sitting room or the children's room. This life... .. .. I was barely 23yrs old when we got married and he's few years older. I actually thought he was all over me, now I look back and believe all that was pretence. Where have I gone wrong? I love this guy in a manner that makes me doubt my own sanity. Yes.. . I doubt if all is well with my brain. It amazes me why I still put up with a man who doesn't deserve even a prostitute. A man who has no regard for me, not even an iota of it. A man who thinks he is alpha and omega. I literally adores him, even after two kids in our marriage I break necks when I walk the streets. I am neater and sexier than most single ladies out there. I respect him, I'm a good cook, educated, brilliant, smart and beautiful. Nobody who knows me will believe I'm passing through hell in the hands of a man I love with all my heart. This life... It's damn funny how even my female friends jokingly ask me if my hubby let's me sleep at night. Who will believe me that we've been intimate just twice thrice this year. Those were even in the early months. This is not the first time he is depriving me of intimacy for months. It's just that for the first time... I'm seeing possibilities of me having an affair. Did I just say that? *sobs* Me of all women? The one who prides in her fidelity as a married woman? The same woman who brags that even at gunpoint, no other man will have his way? The same woman who says even for a trillion pounds? Hahaha this life is really unfair. The once virtuous woman now stays up late into the night watching pornographic films while masturbating. How I feel like stabbing myself to death each time. The guilt on my face when I look at my innocent kids sleeping peacefully on my matrimonial bed which I now share with them. My husband is now my flatmate. Now that God has taken us to a height of relaxation, he chose to spite me. I've tried all I can to breach the gap between us but to no avail. I've been the one begging for affection and even sex. To hell with sex, I can do without it for years but God knows lack of affection will be my death. I keep telling him that he'll look back one day and regret all of this, it's one thing I'm sure of. I didn't force myself on him to marry me. I didn't tie him with any pregnancy. Why me of all people? I love my kids more than life itself, a thousand times I've made up my mind to walk out. I'm not scared of facing life without him, he knows I'm a legit hustler who can place food on the table for myself and the kids. I'm more scared of becoming everything I swore never to be. I'm more scared of even killing him, myself or the kids out of depression one day. I'm so confused, I'm a shadow of myself. I'm breaking each passing day. I'm loosing hope each passing day. The worst of it is that he doesn't believe in communication. He just won't let that happen. How do I let him know he is slowly rewriting all the plans we had for ourselves and the kids? How do I let him know these kids we both adore will suffer most anyday I lose grip and decide to let go? How do I let him know that I wake up some nights, walk over to where he is sleeping, stare at him with so much anguish, pain and tears... While fighting back the urge to just stab him to death. How do I let him know that the true love I have for him is gradually turning into pure hatred? How do I let him know that I'm not sure of the next thing I might do? How do I open his eyes to see what those strange women have succeeded in doing to us? No ooooo I refuse to join you in the madness, adultery is one sin I've sworn NEVER to commit. I'll take a walk. I don't even know if I'm making sense at all but my chest is sooooooo heavy tonight. 15 Likes |
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