Infact,my mouth cannot express the feeling inside me after reading those wonderful replies u guys hv bn posting,God wl bless u all.
I wl do another test nxt week and hope it wl be negative bt if it remains positive,i wl accept it and take a proper care of myself by eating a healthy food dat wl boost my immune system. Wt those encouraging words i got here,i dnt think i wl get a better counsellor than u guys.
After d test i wl then ask them abt d drugs (antiretroviral) and its side effect as regards maintaining d usage and other issue of marriage and having kids.
I wl soak myself in prayer and fasting and wl abstain completely frm any sexual activity,its nt going to be easy bt i pray God wl help me overcome it. I believe in miracle and hope he wl do it for me.

@all, am really happy for all your good advice to me.i cried all nite bt woke up ths morning reading your replies and i just felt a bit relieved because of your encouragement.God wl bless u all.
Concerning breaking d news to my parents is my biggest problem here and my fiancee too,dnt u think dat she may leave me and disclose ths secret to her family and it wl spread frm there. Secondly,if i breakup wt her wat wld be my reason to gv for d breakup wen confronted wt my parents? They love her as their own daughter and were happy dat i hv finally got a wife and a good one. I wl be 33 in  june nt a boy anymore bt suppose to be a father,these words were wat d always confront me wt weneva i visits them.
The issue of going for another test is wat i wl do nxt week to confirm,bt i did ths one on a good federal govt. Hospital where many people and to -be couples get tested in preparation for their wedding. I may nt actually doubt d result bt am stil confused hw i got it. As i said,i neva engaged in penetrative sex since my former gf left me and she's negative. I hv neva done any blood transfusion only that i use public clipper for cutting my hair,my mind is racing every places and i cn remember anytime i hv penetrative sex since then even wt a protection.
I called my sister whom i confide my top secret wt at nite and she said it might be an attack that such do happen,cn i believe ths?.

Ur responses is nt encouraging to me.

Am a member of this forum bt i just decided to open another user name in other to conceal my identity and i wl be glad to get some good advice on hw to deal wt ths problem.

I was shocked and almost fainted today wen i saw d result of my HIV test  and since morning i hv nt eaten anytin coz my appetite is gone and am having a terrible headache since then. This is my second HIV test coz d first one i took was in 2004 wen my sister had an accident and needed a blood transfusion and my parents called me to get home immediately to help save her life and i didn't waste anytime to come home for d blood donation. I thank God that she eventually made it bt one thing that struck my mind then was if incase my test shows HIV positive hw am i going to deal wt it since my parents and siblings were aware of d whole thing and my parents thought that am  still a virgin then coz i came frm a strict xtian family upbringing.

I then vow to be careful frm then on bcoz i had unprotected sex wt abt three different girls before  that and i hv seen my con.dom burst in two different occasions wt a LovePeddler i bleep in a brotel bt yet i didn't get d virus,ths happened around d year 2000-2004.
In d year 2006,i met ths girl and we became intimate friends and we later started having protected sex bt after a while i then made another mistake by having unprotected sex wt her and we both loved it since we trust eachother bt we didn't do any HIV test to knw if we are safe. I later went for a job interview and passed and that was in 2007 a year into our relationship and my company demanded for a compulsory HIV test result frm a government hospital. I didn't went for d test immediately because am nt sure of myself bt i knw dat my girlfriend was d only girl i hv bn havin sex wt after my first test and that was my vow,to keep to only one girl. 

So,wat came to my mind was to ask her to do d test first because i dnt wnt my company and my parents including my friends to knw first because everyone was happy wen i got d job and i too was very happy for d job. So,she did d test and told me that it was negative and i doubted her telling her dat mine was positive just to get d truth frm her bt she insisted in sticking to her words and even told me that she wld come wt d test result. She later paid me a visit  and i saw d result whch was negative. I ask her to repeat that and she did and it also came negative. Then she started asking me abt my fidelity and i told her dat i dnt hv any other bt i later told her dat its all lies that i didnt do any test and my company didnt request for it again.

I later seperated wt my girlfriend and nw am abt settling down this year wt my new woman bt she demanded for d test and i agree though we hvn't  had sex and since am desperate to marry this year,i told her dat i wl do it whch i did yesterday and came ths morning for d result only to b told that am Hiv positive. My former gf was ok coz she married late last year and living happily wt her husband.

My fears nw is my parents coz we are only two boys remaining since our eldest died wen we are stil young. All my parents hope is on me and d wnt to see their grandchild and d love my fiance so well.

Hw am i going to break ths sad news to them and my beloved fiance? And am i really positive since my former gf is negative and i hv bn making unprotected love wt her since two years plus and neva hv unprotected sex since she left and i only did it once in a month and mostly unpenetrative sex.

I honestly need your advice coz am already dying slowly since i saw d test. Pls bear wt my wrong use of english, i just dnt get myself nw.