Hello Everyone ,

Ive been around that block myself , I always believed that it was best to stay for the sake of the children ,
I didnt even realise that my marriage was in dire straits , I was so clueless.
I never left , he did , it nearly tore me apart . didnt do much good for the kids either , needless to say he sees them as
often as his hectic life schedule allows, When he is not with a new g/f , out deep sea diving , partying etc.

I re-married , thought that being with someone who was the opposite of what No1 was would be good,
someone who understood my quirks , laughed at the same kind of things I did , had a penchant for dark humor
had also been used and hurt , so I was careful , tried to make only pretty pictures , tried to hide all the sad and bad everyday things.
Now I have someone , who wont kiss me because I like it too much , wont make love to me , because I want him too much
never forgets to let me know that he can and does satisfy himself .

I am now like a heroin addict , I have tried to let go , but I cant , I hurt too much , I die too much , need to much and
cry too much.

Whats wrong with me , what makes me so stupid and un-loveable ? I ask this every day , every day I dust myself off
pick up my pride , or whats left of it and go to work , hide my heartache and hide my everything ,