andromida:

I think he sees you as a sister and loves u that way, prolly values the friendship too. He has no romantic love for you, he does not want to hurt you because he knows already that you are not the "one".

I thought that too that maybe he see's me as a sister or cousin but the stuff he says to me will be incest if you say that to your family, i just decided to let it go completely i'm talking to someone now and i'm happy.

Creamish:

Since i cannot speak for him, i cannot say if he luvs u or not . . .based on your story, i dont c anything "lurvy"on his part. U need to move on . . Gurl its been 1 yr . . wow! There must be so many other eye-candies @ your location . .

i do tlk to other guys and have been in other realtionships its just when we are together all playing and when we only just tlking to each other i can't help but wonder is there any love there but at this point i dont care nomore but i cant say i want still wonder!

~duchess~:

Still cant make head or tail of what you are saying

And you said you are a writer?

Yes i am and i'm a student as well and you may not understand it because i'm kinda of skippig parts because i didnt want to write a book to explain it.

I understand where your coming from i been in your position with a friend of mine but were still friends its hard because i still have to see him and be around him but you cant let your feelings affect your education. What i have done in the past to say focus was say a quote everytime i thought about him, "Never make someone an priority in your life when your only an option in theirs" it works trust me!

Its whatever makes your wife happy if she and you both want a low-key wedding then thats what you should do! I dont want a low-key wedding i want a big fancy wedding because even though we all love each other in my family sadly we dont see each other much unless its a wedding or funeral and we will all rather it be a wedding! But ;owkey weedings is good to save more money for the honeymoon

For me its Dinner its the last thing i eat and i don't want to go to sleep hungry cause you wake up really hungry!

emofine:

If that's your thought already, then why are you still asking if he loves you?

. . .even if he did love you (which doesn't appear evident in the little I could decipher or maybe I missed that bit somewhere in the midst of your peculiar English ). . . .or even if he does love you (which doesn't bode well as he's planning on having children with anther woman) how will the knowledge that he might have loved you comfort you?
If he did love you I doubt you'd feel any better anyway because you'll most likely be kicking yourself for not acting sooner (which seems to be the case already). . . I love you/I love you not the guy has or is seeking to move on, no need punishing yourself with what if's scenarios, just try and free your mind from him and move on.

I'm still asking because i still have hope for us were still young, and my life just beginning. We are still friends and we be around each other alot and i know I'm not crazy i think he love me and when i ask our friends they are in my opinion "hating"(jealous) because one in particular wanted him and he told her he will never(etc), my thing is he never told me that,

And  at this point i feel like your advice of freeing myself from him is awesome and i have been working on it i talk to other guys

Womanoid, move on.
Una too use words wey una no dey even put into action.
'I'm closer to him than any male or female'. . .'I love him for the man he is and he can be' ~ This implies you know the person well. 
And yet, you're asking us to tell you how he feels about you, us that aren't closer to him or love him for the man he is or can be 

tpia@:

move on sweetie.

didnt understand most of your post but i think you said the guy is no good.


besides, its just a crush.

I thought it was just a crush to but it can't be, I love everything about him even his flaws and i feel he cheat on those other girls cause he dont love them not because he can't help it. I'm not like them other girls and he knows it, thats why i think he told my sister she dont want hi m to be with me. Thats how we got so close because i wasn't like none of the other girls we hung around.

Sorry to the people that read my topic and could not follow the story. I was on my way out and wanted to try and finish before i left out. Also i was trying to put as much details in as i could. i modified it hopely its better understandable. By the way english is my first language and i speak and write it very well. i'm a writer.

What i do when i want to dream about someone is think about them while i laying bed with my eyes close and think about the future, places i want to go with him, things i want to do. think how we would live years from now and it just turn into a dream.

I met my friend almost 5years ago. I been closer to him then any female or male i ever met. Along the way somehow i fell in love with the man that he is and the man that i know he can be. He is older than me by 6years, but now that I'm older its not that much of a deal. The problem is i don't know if he love me. My sister told him i was in love with him. Things between us changed little more on my part because i was so embarrassed. I didn't want him to think everything we did and every advice i gave him on his relationships was base on me loving him cause it wasn't. Two days after i found out my sister told him we all was on the phone talking about it. He asked me "What it was about him that made me love him?" I could not tell him i tried but couldn't tell him. i change the subject and we kind of put it behind us, but i still love him and sometimes i wonder that if i would of told him why i loved him if we would of became a couple, if he would of told me how he felt? Weeks later while driving my sister and her boyfriend to the movies on a date he told my sister "She don't want him to go with her sister cause he a liar and a cheater and can't help it!" He is somewhat of a male LovePeddler and do be playing the girls he bring around but i still love him. And now its been 1 year since she told him and he talking about having kids by this other girl and my heart hurts everytime he says it. I think the man i love is in love with someone Else and i cant be mad cause he's not mine!  But my question is do he love me or did he love me What do you guys think? Have any of you have this experience and how did you deal with it??

P.S- Even though he claims he going to have kids by this girl, I ask why wouldn'the marry her first? he never answers. Also even though i do love him i still date and talk to other guys but i don't think I'm serious about any of them,

You cant no for sure that you love your partner more than he love you some people cant express their love, I learned that the hard way plus listening to this song "Nowhere" by 112 you should check it out.

The only EX i still love is the one who i went with when i was a kid. We broke up because he called me out my name he was playing but i didnt want him to think he could do that so i dump him. We lived down the street from each other all our life till i was 14yrs old. i seen him again at his graduation and all the feelings for him came rushing back at once. I do regret breaking up with him but than again I dont I want to get back with him but everytime i see him he has a new girlfriend.

i use to smoke it was not addictive to me. I was still under legal age so i use to smoke only on the weekends when i hung out with my older friends and cousins. I seen how smoking put blk dots their lips and i didnt want that for my pink lips. Plus it looks really gross. I wouldnt want to kiss no one with those lips. I use to smoke regular black and milds they use to make me feel high! So after they stop making me feel that way and start tasting nasty i just stop smoking them. It have a bad affect on me like if someone esle is smoking they smell so horriable now.

I never took revenage on an Ex-boyfriend i want to, but i dont know if its truly over yet. We break-up and get back together alot, Plus i'm known for always going back with an ex or two.