Do I still love You? I'm crazy! Oh! how I miss you! I don't know what to do. I can't keep this tinge in my heart from tinging. I can't stop myself from missing you. I can't clear you off my head. I can't.... I can't.... I can't what?

Thanks for coming through the back door. Should I say that? Am I cheating? No! I'm a loyal freak, and no matter what, I can't leave her if she doesn't set me free. Maybe I started missing you because I discovered she's no different than the others. I mean, the on I gave my soul and body and all, she's no different from the rest. They're just after my charms and money. They get interested in me cause of my looks! Everyone one of them wants to be with a great guy! A super guy with good looks and then they lay still on my money! There is no love in them! None! Even in her!

Maybe you too, got attracted by my looks, but when we were together, you weren't after my money and your love, I must confess, just as you said was genuine. You didn't stay 'cos I look great. you weren't after my money. I don't know why you left. I can't understand. You said I hurt you, but I think you hurt me. I can't really get it. And so amongst them all you're different.

Yea, I miss you. greatly! Yea, I think I want you back, though I don't know how that's going to work. Only my heart can sway, but I can't really leave her if she doesn't let me go. And I know you might not be thinking that. Maybe now, I'm more confused as to who to be with.

Who does my heart belong to? You, or Her! I don't know! Just like the way I miss you, honestly, I miss her! So who do I go with? I thought they say you can't love two people at the same time? What then is happening to me? Is this my fate? My burden? As a god, for chosen to love a human, Am I cursed to bear this burden of being simultaneously in love with two humans?

I wish my FATHER won't be so angry with me! I wish HE helps me decide who to love. I know, I'm fated to be with a human! Right from time, I knew, I was a god with the fate of loving a human. But I didn't know it will be two women! Why?

I miss you! I miss her! Even though she's this way. just for my money and looks, I still miss her and wish she ain't so! I don't want to mislead you or hurt her. So things should fall into place!

I Miss You! I Miss Her!

https://loudmouthoriginal..com/2019/09/i-miss-you-i-miss-her.html

We were going on fine, but I just discovered, I had to clear my head. I don't Understand what I felt, how I feel for you. I thought I wanted something more, yea, maybe. Not that I thought, I really wanted something more. But then, you didn't give me attention.

I would call, you wouldn't pick. I would text, no replies. I thought I was in this alone, so I wanted to clear my head. I didn't want to go deep into an unrequited love, so I had to clear my head. I didn't call or text for up to a month. You might think I was fine, no I wasn't. I missed you dearly, I couldn't forget. You images slapped me on waking up. They made my breakfast and had lunch with me. They didn't spare me during dinner neither did they let me go the moments I always spent before bed. They romanced me in bed! I wanted to clear my head, but I couldn't do that simple task.

Then you called. You were angry, I was confused. You wanted me to call, but you don't pick my calls or reply my texts. I still couldn't get or figured it out. We lapsed into our silence again. But that was the most unfortunate thing we did. Maybe not, but it did open another chapter in my life. A chapter I wished was and is still closed. Because it brought with it to a lot of confusion into my life. I just wanted to clear my head and things wouldn't stop getting complicated.

She crept back into my life like a poison. No not you, but she. She was there before you, when she left, I found you and found true happiness. I could tolerate all your short comings inasmuch as you loved me. But she crept back in. I forgot to lock the back door, I'm sorry. But how on earth did I forget that? She's been knocking ever since she left and I had refused to open up. i don't know what she wants but I didn't want to be friends as she said. But then she crept in. Through the back door.

What was that again they said about primary love language? My was attention. Acts of service. And she knew that. She gave me what you couldn't give me, attention. Wait, you're not totally at fault here, I knew your primary love language too, touch and gifts, but I was skeptical too. I have always had a phobia for materialistic girls. No you weren't materialistic, you were just a gift girl. You'd appreciate it no matter how little the gift is. That's your love language. So I didn't show you much, neither did you.

When I saw her in, I rushed and dialled you, and you boldly came in through the front door. That day you told me you loved me and I was happy. Very happy. So I thought everything was settled. I was a loyal freak so I trusted my god-status. Hey, I didn't cheat on you. I never did. Till this point I'm writing. It's just that things didn't go to well. In all, my heart remained with you, not once did it weaver. I stayed true to my feelings for you.

But....

It marked the beginning of confusion. Even after telling me you loved me, you still didn't pick my calls or replied my text. When you do pick, you drop it immediately, I was actually wondering if I heard right. You did repeat, but was i sure? Maybe you wanted to taunt me. She gave me time and that was confusing. For the first time, I wanted to know about the things that separated us. I wanted to know why she randomly hug me and say she missed me. I wanted to know a lot, to find out a lot. But my heart remained with you, I swear. I always know that at the end, even if she wants to come back, I will still go to you. I will still choose you. Only that it lies in your hands whether we end up together. She said, she might end up with me in the future, what does she want?

With You...

Lies my heart, my body, my soul. Would you hold on to it or throw it to her? It's you I want, It's your face I can't stop seeing. What I had with her this period was simple, I need to know, I need to understand. I'm a god and I would love to know. That is my weakness. Just I'm bound to loyalty, so also am I bound to insatiable understanding, knowledge and wisdom. I would always want to know.

I think our fates are intertwined, the moment I a god, chose to fall in love with a human female, I think things were reset. Only I pray, you don't play me. That you lay bare to me your true feelings. Maybe it is my insatiable need for knowledge of human love that made me make the decision to fall in love. I want to understand the feelings and emotions of humans. I can read the hearts of human, but that of you both, I can't read. What lies therein I need to know. To you and to her, I pray that my emotions which have developed as that of humans be not toiled with. With her have I seen the pains of human love. With you, would I see the joy of human love?

https://loudmouthoriginal..com/2019/09/i-needed-to-clear-my-head.html

Tell me!
What I feel ain't true!
The state I'm in doesn't exist!
The uttermost realization within me is fake!
Tell me!

Tell me!
I'm deceiving myself and
my make believe ain't real
That I'm not rooted on this land
with the sun directly on my head
and the shadows cast over my hand
That the yearnings within my soul
aren't from my soul
Tell me!

Tell me!
And I won't believe
that after all this years
my soul still ache for you
That I can't deny the fact
constantly whispering in my ears
that I still love you
Tell me!

Tell me!
Oh I know!
You love another
and still, right now
I want to grovel
and beg for you love.
I want to scream and
cry and plead for your love
I want to kneel and
hold on tight to your hand
that I should stay, you
tell me!

Tell me!
That you love me
that all was a long time joke
Let me be angry
let me feign anger
but don't leave
Say you love me
and mean it
Tell me!

Tell me!
Someone should,
tell me, that amongst them all
she alone is real
and others are fake
Tell me!

Oh how suddenly I miss you
Oh, how dearly I'm sad
that to the one I have given my soul,
my body and my love
is just like them all.
That I'm nothing much more
than the worth of my money!
And you alone, is different!
Tell me!

Please, tell me!
That you love me,
From now to eternity
Please!
Tell me!

https://loudmouthoriginal..com/2019/09/tell-me.html

Omudia11:
Haven't watched it and don't intend to. I don't know why people watch graphic videos.

Whether graphics video or not, it was gruesome. And it is pure evil. Not intending, doesn't mean you won't watch it. It can just pop up on your whatsapp screen while watching status

I know by now, you must have watched that video right? The video of the young boy with bicycle shot dead! Multiple shots. I couldn't watch almost threw up! What's going on? How can people be sooooo wicked without any conscience? How can they video themselves killing someone, shooting someone to death? Biko is that video real?

These are no longer human beings! These are demons in human forms. Celebrating the culture of death. GOD! Multiple shots! and video for that matter! Heartlessness! Later somebody will come and tell me not to cry! Not to speak! Not to condemn evil!

Every worker of atrocity, Every supporter of evil, every mouth that refuse to condemn evil, every hands clapping and congratulating evil, Die By Fire!!!!!!

Nwanne, pray that prayer!!!

caprini1:
Nigeria is a lovely country,.....thats all! people that have not travelled out ,wont understand.

That we are a lovely people doesn't mean we should fold our hands when evil happen. It doesn't mean we should clap for our country when defenceless innocent people are being massacred just because we think we are better than other countries. If we are better, Let's strive to become better than we already are. Let's protect the sanctify of human life!

justtoodark:


and what do you await goverment to do exactly when they are tied to diplomatic norms....!!??

they should declare war on south africa or what....??

because this is the only option left then....

they already tried and tried and nothing happened....

the best we nigerians can do is dont use anything south african....

My brother, you're making sense. Na true you talk

ednut1:
why always us everywhere Ghana, malay SA, togo, germany etc

My brother why? It's really painful

MrBrownJay1:


Thanks for confirming that these pocket attacks happen in small villages and the majority of top cities in Nigeria dont have such problem.

"Pocket" abi? No worry when e touch you or your people, don't look for sympathy. People's life are at stake, people are dying, lives are taking and people are brought to untimely death, massacred unjustly and you call it "pocket".

With someone with your conscience, I have no time for discussions

GrossPrice:


Why wouldn't other countries look down on Nigeria when we have people like you to lead the way.

The United States has had and continues to have unprovoked attacks on perpetrated American citizens; someone just shot 30 people in Odessa (August 30), more people die in Chicago or New York every quarter compared to the number of deaths in the North East. How many times have you heard them say "White Terrorism" or "Crime epidemic"?

But Nigerian's like you who prefer to read Wikipedia not JSTOR, or get you world news from Instagram/Twitter/Nairaland not by by sampling different opinions from several reputable outlets, are ready to tear your fellow countrymen to shreds and sell your country for a purified water, GMO bread and 3rd class citizenship.

How many influential South African have spoken out against the attacks in South Africa, yet we have traitors like you, Kate Henshaw, MI. Abaga, Toke Makinwa and Linda Ikeji advocating for free, supporting those animals called South-Africans.

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The biggest problem Nigerian has as a nation is our youths - who have become traitors, sabotagers, prostitutes and criminals.

Men! Read before your attack! So I should sit down and be clapping for people killing my brothers in South Africa? My problem is that I don't even understand your point.

I thought you were condemning me for speaking out against the attacks and siting even Nigeria is not safe. Then you jumb into condemning me for applauding south africans. Nna, guy which one do you? Just kindly read my posts and comments well before you attack.

For your information, I didn't support south africans and will never do!

Oluwasaeon:
Heaven I guess. It's that bad

My brother, but to go heaven na to die first!

FarahAideed:
Till the Nigerian govt begins to honor it's social contract with it's citizens no where will be safe for Nigerians

Who be this govt? We no fit change am? Na till dem kill all our loved ones? Na till dem touch our girl, or our man, or family before we react? Wetin do us? My eye don red with tears

BBBmall25:
Cheerrrs Bro

Thanks man! One love! Peace

BBBmall25:
Yea Bro, My Heart Bleed. Though I Ain't Gat Any Relative Afected, But Mehn! Am Damn Mad By What Am Seeing,,. Those Guys Are Still Our Own Let Put Aside Our Usual Bashing And Cry Out To Our Brothers#onenigeria#

One Naija bro! Anything wey do one do all. One for all, all for one!

MrBrownJay1:


Bro...there are killings murders and death everywhere in the world. And you certainly shouldn't use these pocket ethnic violence to view Nigeria as an unsafe country for Nigerians.

Na because you dey for good place, go live for Bornu or any of this southern villages wey fulani dey yamayama, na then you go understand. The fear and the pain. If to talk say you dey that south area when the attack come, you for no dey talk like this. You never see death na im cause am. Inasmuch say e get area wey no dey safe, Naija no dey safe. Na our brothers and sisters dey that area. Na their loved ones wey dem don massacre. Killings dey the whole world, but a constant terror attack, a large scale massacre, an ethnic purge, bro, that place no dey safe!

BBBmall25:
Buari I Loved So Much Has Proved Me Wrong,,,,. I Expected To See Trump's Rugedity In Him Yet None! Even Though The Region Most Affected By This Xenophobic Always See Nothing Good In His Govt. And Nigeria In General, It Sadden My Heart To See Them Perish That Way! They Are Still My Brother', And Even If The Succeed To Get Their Biafra One Day, They Will Still Remain My Brothers. Yea I Love Them That Way. Pls My Presido Act, They Still Much Nigerians! And Their Live Is Sacred As That Of Fulanis And Ur Cows.# Bbbmall25#onelove#.

Na so BBBmall25, na so im be, them get life, them dey precious! make their life matter. They no deserve die like fowl. Cow no dey more precious than them. Na we get this country, na now or never

MrBrownJay1:
Bro there are many countries (included Nigeria) where Nigerians are safe, aka all over the world...stop writing rubbish online and start to love your country first and foremost.

Now, have you ever heard of Nigerians being massacred aside from in South Africa? Tell us all Mr smart somebody, which other country in the world have you heard of these xenophobic murders of Nigerians?

MrBrownJay Who tell you say I no love my country? I talk truth, e come become rubish for your eye, anyways na your eye. If we dey safe for Naija, wey Leah Sharibu dey? you don forget? The people wey dem dey kill for Bornu, you stop am? The Fulani herdsmen wey they massacre Igbos ands other southerners, you catch them? You know how many people dem don kill for our country? Na so e take start, small small fulani don spread, na so e take start. Now na south africa, if we no do anything, where be next? If you read my post you go see am, dem dey watch us!

Where is safe for Nigerians? I'm earnestly asking.If you know, abeg tell me, me self wan know.

In our own country we are being massacred, if we run comot, the same fate awaits us. Wetin we go do? What wrong did we do to South Africans? Why do they choose to spill our blood? Tell me brother! Sister tell me. Me sef, I wan know. The soil of South African, haven't it had enough of our blood? How much more does it intend to drink? Why will our blood be used as the libation offering for the gods of South Africa? What's happening Down South?

Brother where dey safe for Nigerians, Sister Where dey safe for Nigerians? Tell me, me sef wan know. What the hell is our government doing? Are we truly worth nothing?

Brother! Sister! Mai tell una, if this government no do anything, and we come dey wait for four years before sending them packing, na we mumu pass! Brother! Sister! Na now we go end this government! If they no do anything, we keep quiet, na him be say we go keep quite they go front! Na im be say they fit do us anything stand garagara no shaking. Na this one they carry watch us make them know wetin we fit do!

If this government no do anything, this is the time to take Nigeria! This na our only opportunity, our only justified time!

"On the First day of the ninth month of the nineteenth year of the second millennium of the year of the LORD, on the first day of the week..." That's the way your bible would put it, right? Sunday 1st September 2019, Over there in the sky just as I was passing through Airport Road, Enugu, A Double Rainbow! Brilliantly showing clearly! It cam clearly to my mind the story I heard as a child, the story of Noah. A sigh escaped through my lips, Science just tried destroying those sweet memories. What's with their speculations sef?

Anyways, I still believed my bible story over science, anytime, anywhere, anyhow, you gat? So what is happening now, double rainbow, not even one. It is great ooo. But what if there's a significance to all this?

For a long time now, Nigerians have been wailing to GOD to "forgive all their trespasses and heal their nation" they are well fed up with their country! What if this is GOD'S answer, A double rainbow. A great beauty, HE is not given up on Nigeria, HE is not forsaking Nigeria, He will heal!

Maybe HE is no longer waiting for those ruining our country to change, HE's going to change them by fire by force! You love that right? HE is telling us, double times with a double rainbow, "I will not let Nigeria be destroyed" "I will have mercy!"

Aha! So if you are one of the people ruining Nigeria, oya it's time to pack and leave! Before HIS wrath descends! Tell them "pack and leave!"


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I think the discord between the catholic church and netflix is about to get bigger.

Sometime ago, Netlix kick against (in some ways) against prolife and endorsed abortion. You know, they went far from business and got involved in a religious issue. They wanted to use their influence to suppress prolifers. But I think, Netflix forgot something. They forgot the biggest institution endorsing prolife was the Catholic Church. The Catholic Church has been upfront against abortion and almost seems like the religious body fighting it head on.

So when Netflix struck, Catholic apologetics responded by uploading it on all their sites with their billions followers. So faithful catholics unsubscribed netflix and spread the word. The aftermath was that netflix got a downslope in market size. A very big huge downslope.

But Netflix isn't done yet. They have recently come up with the trailer of a hit movie "the two popes" and as they claimed "inspired by true events". You see, people say Netflix is trying to create amity with the catholic church, while some think otherwise. Whatever the case, I think catholic apologetics are ready for whatever Netflix has in stock. They have already issued warnings to their billions followers that "inspired by true events" does not necessarily mean right and accurate. And that they should beware that watching such can create a bias mindset of the truth.

I think the battle is on, Most catholics have issued their voice. Netflix is cancelled and won't be interested. Some have decided to cancel after the warnings and watching the trailers. Some others think they will watch to know what's supping. But I think if Netflix strikes with their secret weapon rather than create amity, they will receive a deadly boomerang blow. Catholics are staunch and would retaliate. Catholics haters might take the straw, draw out some loose catholics, but at the end, the catholic will prevail and draw more flocks to their pasture. It's always been like that in the past. And just imagined that most of catholic apologetics are seasoned and renowned ex abi (or) former protestant great theologians.

In my opinion, Netflix should seek for amity (which I think catholics are already saying no safe the make a public apology to prolifers and produce a movie promoting prolife and ending abortion). They went down the slope just for banning and refusing to air the prolife movie "unplanned", what will happen when they strike the Shepherd?